It has been a very, very stressful two weeks. Funny thing is, I was feeling this way because of two “blessings” that came my way! I guess sometimes life throws you good things and they turn ‘bad’ for some weird reason. I guess they weren’t meant to be… or at least that’s what I keep telling myself.

First instance, I was offered a great position in an equally great global company. I’m 7 months into my current job, which I love, so it was very difficult to decide. I was weighing between grabbing an opportunity that may not come my way again (and of course the perk of being offered more money), or stick to where I was now because I was happy and was still being paid pretty well. Everyday was really quite heavy as my heart was not 100% into what I was currently doing because I could very well move out the week after.

So I told myself my decision should be made this week, and I finally decided not to take the leap ahead yet, and develop myself further in the current role I am in now. Whether that is a good decision or not, I will see in the next months or so. Hopefully, I made the right choice.

Second instance, I joined a game show I never thought I would be in. I went through 3 screening processes and got accepted and was scheduled for the taping of the show. The feeling was amazing, and it was one heck of an experience. The screening was hilarious as the people handling us were driving us nuts with their antics. When the decision came as to who was in and my name was called, it was an awesome feeling.

When taping day came, there were 3 mock games that came before the actual game. It was practice to loosen up. I had won all 3 games and the two people who were up against me were quite fearful, honestly, as they openly said it to us all. When the game came, excuses aside, the winner was just unbelievably lucky, and I was the one who ended up with no money at all.

I thought to myself, what a shame, but I really had no control over what was happening. Circumstance had let me run through the game with only 4 chances, and I never got another one. When I got home, I tried to tell myself to simply accept the defeat, but I knew I couldn’t as my ego and pride were really damaged (hehe). So because of the denial, I dreamt about this damn game every night until the day it showed on TV, which was today. And am I glad it’s over.

Sure, I got the messages from friends making fun of me and all that, but it was still an experience I enjoyed thoroughly. It would have been great if I had won, but I guess it wasn’t meant to be. When the show ended, it was like a boulder was taken off my chest, and I could finally breathe again

Whether or not those “blessings” I got were meant as tests, I’ll never know. But what has stuck with me after both instances have passed, is the fact that they were unique experiences I doubt most people will ever be able to go through in their lifetime. And that mere fact, makes it all worth it

Talk about the longest mass EVERRRR! I just went through one that had 9 readings, with the baptism of 17 kids, the confirmation of 7 others, and a walk around the village from street to street.

Well gee… my cousins were able to convince me to go today since it was Easter mass and supposedly the most important mass of the year. Soo… I figured it was a good time to go back to mass since I never fail to see my folks smile when I go with them, and I guess that’s more than enough reason to. The other reason is for me to give thanks for all the blessings I have had (and I am pretty blessed) and pray for things to hopefully go perfect on my wedding day.

Besides that, my eyes are shot, and I’m ready to sleep for the next 24 hours, hehe, make that hopefully at least… 10 hours. But I’ll put up a post for some “Heroes” fans before I say hello to Mr. Sandman…

Isn’t it appalling how there is so much hypocrisy in the world? But isn’t it worse to realize that most people are actually hypocrites? You, me, your friends, your family, your BOSS?

Hypocrisy can be defined as: consciously violating your own stated morality to the world, and presenting yourself as a person with high standards, while in truth, low standards better define your behavior. There are many examples of this. You marry your fiancee because you are crazy about her, not for sex or a twisted sense of security. You choose to be a doctor to help others, not for money or fame. And so on and so forth.

We usually are quick to notice the hypocrisy in others. Oftentimes, we notice it in ourselves too. But when we do, we have this sense that it is an acceptable kind of hypocrisy. So are there more acceptable forms of hypocrisy than others?

What if you were in a dilemma of wanting to move to another company? The problem is, it is direct competition, but offers a significantly higher salary (that you need) that your current company cannot give you. You tell your boss about it, and you do everything you can to explain to him why you are moving. He counter-offers so you would stay, but all to no avail because the gap is really that far. He then lets you go, and is so disappointed at you to the point that he takes it personally. You try to talk to him properly and see him, but he always seems irritated at you and doesn’t answer your calls or messages. Then you go to your customer one day and he says your ex-boss was just there and was saying bad things about you because you moved to direct competition telling them how disloyal you are. Then months after, your ex-boss moves to exactly the same company you are in because he obviously is better off with the move financially. His excuse? He isn’t moving to direct competition, it’s a totally different department and thus a totally different case!

Bullshit.

What would be his excuse now for his actions? What kind of morality would a person like that have, to have no shame to move to where you are at?

Words fail me.

Don’t judge unless you don’t want to be judged yourself. He is a shame to himself and to all the people he said all those things to. In the end, it is always easier to change what we say and think, because what we do is driven more fundamentally by what we really want. And that is the hardest thing to change.