Eww. Haven’t we all gone through this particular stage in our lives? You get close to a guy or a girl, of the opposite gender of course, then have these mixed feelings inside about how you feel as you get to know them much better. You slowly start liking them, then start missing them, then you ask yourself WHY you feel that way. And because your life just isn’t challenging enough, you want to complicate it further. So you start giving nice things to each other, say sweet nothings to each other, and see each other as much as you can. But hey… you’re just friends. These are normal things close friends do for each other. I’ve heard a friend of mine say this to me a million times. Yeah right.

Now let’s see… the act of delusion. Take a good look at this picture for a minute. Now take a good look at yourself, and the situation you’re in. Does it look vaguely familiar? If it does, and you are in this state, you would most likely be afraid of two things.

First, you’re afraid to get hurt. You’ve played the scenario in your head already. You gather up all the courage you have and ask him how he feels about you, because something inside tells you that it MUST be something different… something special. But what if he doesn’t feel the same way and it’s all just in your head? The mere possibility of being rejected sends an eerie chill down your spine.

Second, you’re afraid to lose him. Just like the two lovebirds above, the fear is that when you expose your true feelings to someone and it is rejected, you not only lose your friendship, but lose him altogether. And for many people, that is an unacceptable option. They would rather live in the fantasy world they are in now, just to be able to enjoy the fleeting closeness that they have gotten so used to. Letting go of that blissful state is something they would never risk.

But what good is there in that kind of fear? Given that there is a slight risk, but would you rather pretend than risk truly knowing what could be? When the time comes that some hot princess takes your precious prince away from you, the realization and regret you will have will be but all too late. And it has happened time and time again, to countless, countless people all around the merry world.

Personally, I could never live with such a question mark in my head. The “what-if’s and what-could-have-been’s” of life must be answered and can be answered. All it takes is a little courage for you to be able to take that leap of faith and then you can know for sure. What do you lose anyway? Your pride? Pride is for fools especially when it comes to matters of the heart. You should never be a fool because of pride, but you could always be a fool for love, right? Hehe! My fiancee had sent me something before called “Love’s Risk.” And it says, rather appropriately to end this topic…

“Love is the greatest of all risks. It is not reliable, it is not cautious. It is not sympathetic and it is merciless. It strikes the strongest of mind, and brings them to their knees in one blow. The risk of love never depletes, it grows stronger and more dangerous with time. It consumes your every thought and desire… and every breath you take. It is the fire that fuels you, to do more than just pass through life. It urges you instead, to live. No matter what the outcome, having felt love, you will never be the same. It may scar your heart and your soul, and leave you with only memories of forever. Or it may cause every day of your life, to feel like there is no need for tomorrow. Love is worth it. It is worth the risk. For in all of life, love is truly the only risk worth taking.”

March 26 finally came, and it was gone pretty darn quick! The good news… my fiancee liked the LV bag I gave her! Yippeeee! The bad news… I didn’t win the lotto! Surprise surprise! There’s another one on Sunday though, and I’m not giving up on 216 million pesos! It was a nice 3 day break for me, but it’s back to work again on Monday. In any case, I found something pretty nifty a few minutes ago…

If you’re one of those people who have Google as your default homepage, you must be sick and tired of how that page looks like every single day. To give Google credit though, the word changes in design depending on the occasion for the day or the month But if you would prefer a better looking page that has personalized settings for you based on the content you want, then iGoogle is for you.

I’m not sure how new or how old this is, but today is the first time I have seen it. What’s great about it is that you have a ton of content to choose from, and you can personalize it based on RSS (Really Simple Syndication). RSS is a family of web feed formats used to publish frequently updated content, such as the news blurbs you see here. As I live in the Philippines, I’ve selected the top newspapers to feed me the headlines everyday. You can also add a few games, like I did on the right side like a daily crossword puzzle. You can even theme your Google page to suit your taste like the Solar System theme I used, and put on the usual sticky notes for things to do and see how the weather forecast is everyday. So pretty much a fairly simple application, but much cooler because you drive the content you want every time you open your browser.

This beats that white classic Google page anyday.

March 26, 2008. Today is a very special day, for 3 giddy reasons

First, it’s my 3rd year anniversary with my fiancee and I have taken a leave of absence from work for 2 days to spend much needed quality time with her hehe I bought her something I never wanted to buy her, or wanted her to buy for herself, because it is absolutely ridiculous to spend 40k++ for a darn bag. But she’s been wanting a Louis Vitton bag since 2 years ago, and I can’t resist not buying her what she has obviously wanted for so long. So what the heck, I got her one when I had a trip to KL around 3 weeks ago. Funny thing is, I had tried to “fish” from her the kind of bag she wanted in LV, so we window-shopped in Greenbelt. She wanted a white one, so I tried pointing out the one I picked out for her, named Beverly, and her reaction was “Ay, I don’t like that!” Now that really burst my bubble hahaha! I hope to God that she changes her mind when she sees it, otherwise I would have thrown away quite a significant amount for something she doesn’t like

Second, there’s this charity thing called World Vision, where you donate a particular amount of money every month, “adopting” a child and trying to help through monthly donations. The organization had no idea on anything about me and my fiancee, just our names and how much we were giving the kid every month. When they had sent us the picture of the child, whose name is Erika, a very nice coincidence was that her birthday was on March 26! So that was quite a nice surprise. I don’t know what it means though, but that must be a good thing.

And third, I’ve always had a pretty good guesswork on things, whether it’s intuition or just pretty lucky guesses, I’ve somehow been able to make manifest what I THINK are things that may happen. Oooh right? haha! But I have had a very good feeling about winning the lotto for the past week hehe! That’s really absurd when you think about it, the chances you have of winning one is almost impossible. So you pick 6 numbers out of 49, the draw is on Thursday, March 27, and the jackpot is at almost 200 million pesos! Yumyum. And I had a waking dream last week that I had bought lotto tickets TODAY with 6 lucky numbers, 12 entries of which are numbers picked personally by me (the number 26 is of course there!) and my fiancee, and 1000 pesos worth of lucky pick numbers for the other entries. And hopefully when the draw is done… I’ll win and not have to work for the rest of my life! Let’s see how that goes hahaha

For all the Heroes fans out there, who are practically all the people I know… all my friends and all my cousins, who keep bugging me to watch the show. Look… I did, but the first two episodes just really SUCKED so I never ever tried to watch it again But since I found this somewhere, I’m pretty sure a lot of you would appreciate this, so here it is.

It’s the original soundtrack for the aforementioned TV series. An essential for all fans, the soundtrack features 18 songs from artists such as Wendy and Lisa, Wilco, Bob Dylan, the Chemical Brothers, and other groups I have never heard of in my life! But of course, a must have for all Heroes fans! Enjoy and good night!

Tracks:
1. Wendy And Lisa – Heroes Theme 0:12
2. Wendy And Lisa Ft. Shankar – Fire And Regeneration 2:26
3. Brighton Port Authority Ft. Iggy Pop – He’s Frank 3:26
4. The New Pornographers – All For Swinging You Around 3:41
5. Wilco – Glad It’s Over 4:18
6. Panic At The Disco – Nine In The Afternoon 3:14
7. Nada Surf – Weightless 3:33
8. Wendy And Lisa – Natural Selection 0:24
9. Sheila Chandra – Abonecrownedrone 3 (Excerpt) 4:14
10. My Morning Jacket – Chills 4:15
11. Death Cab For Cutie – Jealousy Rides With Me 2:35
12. Imogen Heap – Not Now But Soon 3:46
13. Wendy And Lisa – Homecoming 0:31
14. The Jesus And Mary Chain – All Things Must Pass 4:27
15. Bob Dylan – Man In The Long Black Coat 4:30
16. Cucu Diamantes And Yerba Buena – Maya’s Theme 5:02
17. The Chemical Brothers Ft. Spank Rock – Keep My Composure 4:39
18. David Bowie – Heroes 6:06

Artist: Various Artists
Title: Heroes OST 2008
Time: 01:01:19
Size: 89.20MB
Torrent:: NewTorrents

Talk about the longest mass EVERRRR! I just went through one that had 9 readings, with the baptism of 17 kids, the confirmation of 7 others, and a walk around the village from street to street.

Well gee… my cousins were able to convince me to go today since it was Easter mass and supposedly the most important mass of the year. Soo… I figured it was a good time to go back to mass since I never fail to see my folks smile when I go with them, and I guess that’s more than enough reason to. The other reason is for me to give thanks for all the blessings I have had (and I am pretty blessed) and pray for things to hopefully go perfect on my wedding day.

Besides that, my eyes are shot, and I’m ready to sleep for the next 24 hours, hehe, make that hopefully at least… 10 hours. But I’ll put up a post for some “Heroes” fans before I say hello to Mr. Sandman…

Isn’t it appalling how there is so much hypocrisy in the world? But isn’t it worse to realize that most people are actually hypocrites? You, me, your friends, your family, your BOSS?

Hypocrisy can be defined as: consciously violating your own stated morality to the world, and presenting yourself as a person with high standards, while in truth, low standards better define your behavior. There are many examples of this. You marry your fiancee because you are crazy about her, not for sex or a twisted sense of security. You choose to be a doctor to help others, not for money or fame. And so on and so forth.

We usually are quick to notice the hypocrisy in others. Oftentimes, we notice it in ourselves too. But when we do, we have this sense that it is an acceptable kind of hypocrisy. So are there more acceptable forms of hypocrisy than others?

What if you were in a dilemma of wanting to move to another company? The problem is, it is direct competition, but offers a significantly higher salary (that you need) that your current company cannot give you. You tell your boss about it, and you do everything you can to explain to him why you are moving. He counter-offers so you would stay, but all to no avail because the gap is really that far. He then lets you go, and is so disappointed at you to the point that he takes it personally. You try to talk to him properly and see him, but he always seems irritated at you and doesn’t answer your calls or messages. Then you go to your customer one day and he says your ex-boss was just there and was saying bad things about you because you moved to direct competition telling them how disloyal you are. Then months after, your ex-boss moves to exactly the same company you are in because he obviously is better off with the move financially. His excuse? He isn’t moving to direct competition, it’s a totally different department and thus a totally different case!

Bullshit.

What would be his excuse now for his actions? What kind of morality would a person like that have, to have no shame to move to where you are at?

Words fail me.

Don’t judge unless you don’t want to be judged yourself. He is a shame to himself and to all the people he said all those things to. In the end, it is always easier to change what we say and think, because what we do is driven more fundamentally by what we really want. And that is the hardest thing to change.